Things i have learnt 
things are forever changing 
# This week my baby girl started Highschool wow where did that time go i miss my cute cheeky lil miss she growing up so fast in the blink of an eye . if i could go back in time No i would not change a thing she was my 2nd baby to grow in my tummy but my first born as my first is in heaven x 
changes 
if i could change anything i think i would have still followed my dreams 
picked up a hobby to learn x

kept in touch with friends from school better (i miss having connections with people that get me that know i wasn't always this Boring or lame )

fought a little harder for things 


Im a mum of 6 not a lot know this
I have two angels in heaven  i hope to one day meet
and my 4 little circus crazy gymnasts \ i really don't know where they got there super crazy flexibility and stuff from  i was fast at running back many moons a go , i played many sports netball, basketball ,jazz ballet ,ballet , karate , soccer , even body boarded in my teen years but i could never really do cartwheels or handstands yet my kids basically walked out of the womb doing these things hahaha ]  madi went thru a stage of kartwheeling instead of walking
zeb is 1 and does flips and ttys to stand on his toy horse like a vaulter , no fear at all he also dances as soon as he hears music he likes , he can twerk we have a tube vid from one day we caught him doing it hahahaha

My hair is colourful  i feel crazy on the inside so i let out my crazy in radiant out there colours  its just me 
i think ill be the granny with punk rock hair hahahaha 

I do not know what the future holds for me or any of my kids most days its just a sink or swim (or float) to keep going my body has breakdowns possibly my endometrioeus but who knows i hate drs i hate needles so some days I'm stuck hiding under pillows with extreme pain or my body has fought the pain so bad it just has no more get up and go 
i worry for the future that if it gets so bad how will i go how can i function x 

any way thats it for now i have a tired lil hub ready for bed and another child having a meltdown kicking of that he will not go to school tomorrow ohhh happy Days not  living with mental illness and disabilities  is so BLA it kinda does suck autism can be a complete AHOLE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAve a happy weekend peeps