(This is OUr world Alone tired emotionally wrecked )

WHAT its only 10;30 sobs it feels like late afternoon Taiy is all over the place today we went early to shops before it got busy to get a few things needed for tomorows lunch but she started freaking out and that just set her off on a spiral :( xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx that and her routine has been broken with school holidays deep breaths i have loads of cooking and cleaning and hubby working all holidays im praying we get respite help before next school holidays AS i REALLY REALLY AM NOT COPING I try to hold things together But i am NOT super woman like i pretend living with children with special needs is mentally, phyisacly ,emotionally draining AND for thos who are always behind mt back SAYING she is NOT THAT bad and does NOT have a disability YOU dont see her UN medicated Or behind closed doors .. YES she can ct and be normal but only for small amouts of time Holding her self in causes her and us more issues behind closed doors Only very few see her and still love her for HER ... MY day is spent going around on a rollercoaster so before you judge me stop and think about that your children and there LIL meltdowns are nothing to the ones we get chuncks ourta walls broken furniture bruises from protecting them from hurting them selves xxx Got that off my chest i feel a tad less tearfull YES I LOVE MY CHILDREN YES THERE ARE PEOPLE THAT CANT HAVE CHILDREN AND i am lucky to have them BUT when they are special It is emotional xxxxxxxxxx